Just another thought…
August 6, 2006I consider myself as a young man with big goals. I have laid down my plans on how to achieve my objectives in life. The time frame has also been set. I take small steps day by day to attain them. The only thing I haven’t done is to come up with a formal mission and vision statements. I guess that would be too much. But if you think about it, it’s good to have these things written so that I'll be reminded and be guided through out the journey.
Sometimes, I get tired of thinking about these plans. I ask myself if I will really be happy after realizing these dreams. It makes me feel troubled taking into account the probability of not being contented after accomplishing my ambitions in life. On occasion, I consider giving up these dreams. And it’s not easy. Sleepless nights. Hours of staring blankly at a view from the window of our house. Minutes of deep breathing. Seconds of nothingness.
The good thing is that I have friends that are there to listen. To give pieces of advice. And to make themselves available for a simple conversation over a cup of coffee. They give me a bucketful of hopes. Really. I appreciate it.
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I’m currently reading a book by Ralph Parlette entitled "The University of Hard Knocks." It talks about life. It thrashes out the bumps that get into us and the bumps that we choose to dig up. I can totally relate to every example he discusses and it makes me smile and laugh alone. I’m looking forward to finish it in the next few days. Hopefully.
An Autumn Day Part II
August 4, 2006It has been months since I arrived here in Fairfield, Iowa. I left the Philippines two weeks before my parents’ birthday. The good thing is that I was able to celebrate with them through these sophisticated internet technologies. I saw how my mom and dad blew their birthday candles. Yes, my mom’s birthday is just a day ahead of my dad’s. The morning of that day, I bought a bottle of red wine. When I got to my apartment, I immediately opened it and took a sip afterward.
Minutes later, I found myself on the couch looking intently upon the ceiling. I was watching how the ceiling fan slowly rotates. I realized that my life has been like the solitary fan. For the past weeks, I have been very busy doing things over and over again without getting anywhere. I have made myself occupied with school stuff. Every once in a while I go out, but with no one to spend the night with.
Like the ceiling fan, I need to get moving. But unlike it, I will not allow myself to get fixed in this lonely city. I’ll just be spending a year or two here and will go back to my country. Sigh..
Wednesday blast
August 3, 2006After working for 8 long hours, I had the chance to enjoy the night with my friends and my officemates. Two hours of badminton action was really satisfying. The feeling I get when I perspire a lot is totally exhilarating especially when I see it running down my face and dripping onto the floor. Man, it really felt good!
When I got home, I immediately had my dinner. I drank 2 glasses of chocolate milk and consumed an apple afterward. I’m becoming health-conscious these past few days. I guess that’s the right thing to do after being sick for quite a long time.
Hours later, a close friend of mine asked me to watch Bo Sanchez’ program in channel 9. Bo discussed the real purpose of our dreams and goals in life. I agree to him when he said that achieving our goals is not the ultimate end. Its worth will only be realized when we share it with others.
It’s already 12:33 AM. I'm outta here.
A little unwell
August 1, 2006I have been sick these past few weeks. Last week I had allergic bronchitis. It has been recurring since I started working. It must be caused by the pollution in this busy city. I wasn’t able to report for work from Tuesday afternoon to Friday. A couple of days before availing of my sick leaves, I was asking for a break. And it was granted. The problem is that I had to be sick just to get a time off. Obviously, I didn’t enjoy my stay at home. Coughing and sneezing every so often, I realized that I consumed 4 rolls of tissue paper all in all.
The worse thing is that I missed my midterm exam in IS238 (Client-Server Computing). I’m still coordinating with my professor to ask for a make-up exam. And guess what? If I will be allowed to take a make-up exam, I’ll have to take it on September 23. That is almost 2 months from now. I don’t understand it. A midterm exam when the semester is about to close? Hahaha…
Two days after getting my clearance from my doctor, I got a runny nose. And I still have it until now. I don’t know why I’m becoming so sickly these days considering that I’m taking my multivitamins plus a tablet of vitamin C in the morning and before going to bed.
A social one. Aims at the stars. Conservative with money - usually. Broad in ideas. Ideals applied to home. Aggressive socially. With high aspirations, sometimes too high! Loves freedom. Big-hearted, benevolent in attitude. Persistent and practical in work. Sometimes sportive. Loves children. Aspires onward......
